Often time I wonder what Jesus was thinking just before he did a miracle. What was going through his head the moments before the waiter tasted the water turned wine? What was he thinking in those moments after he raised from the dead before he left the tomb? I mean these were major shifts in theology and in the average person’s understanding of God.
I sit here writing this with two days left before we launch a brand-new worship service in the church I serve. We’ve been planning this service for nearly ten months and I find myself wondering what is going through the mind of God. Is God smiling? Is God as nervous as I am? Or is God just sitting up there shaking His head at how stupid the idea is?
The fact that in two days my church is going to go through a major shift is not lost on me. I can’t believe that I am sitting here on the edge of this huge event and my only thought is whether or not Jesus approves of it. I mean, what if no one shows up? what if everyone shows up? But those aren’t the right questions, as far as I can tell, the only correct question to ask is whether or not this is what Jesus has called me and this church to do? If it isn’t we shouldn’t be doing it, but if it is then we should run to it with everything we have.
I find myself incredibly nervous and humbled at the same time. Humbled that God would call me to this but nervous because I know how many things can go wrong. We will see what happens and all that is left to do is pray and wait for God to pull it all together.